EULOGY

Suddenly, I was reminded of all of the dreams I have forgotten. Some of the dreams have been accomplished, while the rest haven’t. As I grow older now, though, I have rediscovered myself, and invented a lot of new dreams. The things I want to do before I die..

by the way talking about death, do you ever imagine about your last day on earth? when you passed away? what will the world says about you in your funeral?, how they will remember you? as what kind of person??. Those questions lead me to the Eulogy [kata2 perpisahan dalam upacara pemakaman] which i got in Service Program Design class some semesters ago. I reopen the folder, read it once again and dropping tears.

so, these are some "EULOGY" which were written for me by my friends "pretending that I have already passed away".

Mas ade: 

          Belum lama saya mengenal Shanti,rekan kerja yang saya anggap juga sebagai adik. Baru kira-kira sekitar 5 bulan ini. Memang sebuah waktu yang sangat singkat untuk berbagi kisah bersama, antara saya dan adik saya yang satu ini.

          Singkatnya kesempatan saya untuk lebih mengenal dia tidak membuat saya kecewa. Karena saya merasa Tuhan adil dan baik terhadap saya dan Shanti. Kepergian Shanti yang begitu cepat tetap membuat saya merasa beruntung sempat mengenalnya dan merasakan kerja sama yang baik dengan Shanti.. Shanti adalah seorang guru yang baik, partner yang kooperatif dan adik yang sangat perhatian dan penyayang. Saya yakin semua orang yang pernah mengenalnya dapat merasakan semangat itu; semangat untuk membagikan kebahagiaan, keceriaan, perhatian, dan kasih sayang untuk semua orang.

         Tidak ada yang pernah menyangka Shanti akan pergi meninggalkan kita secepat ini.. Dek Shanti yang juga kadang nakal pasti akan sangat saya rindukan kehadirannya di hidup saya. Saya mewakili rekan kerja Shanti meminta maaf atas segala kesalahan yang ada. Dek Shanti pasti menempati tempat yang indah di surga. Sekarang, saya ajak Anda sekalian yang hadir di tempat ini untuk tersenyum melepas kepergian dek Shanti..sama seperti yang dek Shanti berikan pada kita setiap kali bertemu.. MAri tersenyum, Selamat tinggal dek shanti..

Mas itok:

Dear friend..
I just know you recently...
very short time, but meaningful..
You should know that...
your gesture makes me laugh
your way of speaking makes me smile..
your smile warmth me...
your way of life is such inspiration for me...
Good bye friend...
nothing I can say except it is a privileged to know you..
we all your friends love you..
thou you're gone but your memories will stand still... 

Mas teguh:

         Her name means peace, Shanti. She was a great friend. She had lived a wonderful life though it was short. She always has a very good word to save your day. So long Shanti, we will meet again someday.

         I  remember the first time we met. She was an ordinary girl in jeans and shirt. She was my junior. We had no time to introduce each other, just knew and be friend. She was my colleague and my friend. She was in her brown shirt and jeans when we met in a very awkward situation, and it continued in our next day. She worked very well, and I had to learn from her how to teach since she taught her students well.

         She was really good at helping. She helped everybody who needed her helped. she also became a volunteer when the mount Merapi erupted. One thing that I wish I could do. Her heart was so kind and somewhat tender. She was really good person. This is all I can say about her. I have no more words to be said.

           shanti’s death was sudden. I remember when I heard the news I simply could not believe it. Shanti was too young but as it slowly occurred to me I have realized that Shanti indeed lived her life wonderfully. She was well-loved and he had done so many things on earth and I’m sure he’ll do much more in heaven. I will forever be grateful to have known her. All the memories I have shared with her will forever be cherished and remembered. Shanty will forever live in my heart… In our hearts.
           Shanti will forever be missed but I know in the right time, I will meet her again.

Ayah: 

Putriku, hidup itu adalah anugrah peliharalah dan jagalah kehidupan itu, jangan berandai-andai. Gmn kalo pertanyaannya bapak balik kira2 shanti mau jawab apa?  [Tut tut tut telpon dimatikan....]

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After I read those EULOGY, I began to shift my mindset – that I have to make my life worth remembering. I have to create moments I would never forget, do great – awesome things! So that when my time on EARTH is up, I will be missed and remembered as a person who had life her life to the fullest. I HOPE :)

Wish me luck

I was so grateful knowing that I passed the administration test of S1-KKT UNY. but, it wasn't everything, it was just the beginning of the real war, because i still have to pass the written test as well.  I read on the description about the written test carefully, I’ve downloaded "Tes Potensi Akademik" from the internet today and very eager to do it.

so guys please pray for me :)

Hey, You ! yes YOU ! I MISS YOU....

Long-Distanced. Stupid fights. Long YM hours. Thousand messenger words. Voice Notes. Bad-signaled calls. Stupid screen kisses. Sweet times. jokes. Hopes. Ignorance. Forgiveness. those love songs. Fear of losing. Love is a strange thing.

P.S: if you read this. please understand that i miss you so much...yes YOU !